My my. Thank you for the wonderful comments on my last post, so very touching. (Some made me teary.) It has always felt a bit odd not to talk about that past life of mine, it was my identity. And odder still to continue on life without that part of myself- the songwriter. I thought for many years that it was an all or nothing thing. Either I would be a mom or I could do my music. And it was all or nothing...until now.
Now, the girls are older and mama can be "Cory" a little more. There are those years, and you might understand, when all I was..was Mama. I am happy that it was that way. And I am also happy that it's not so black and white anymore. Some things in life, I beieve are black and white. Being an artist, I've found, is not one of them. Nor being a mother. There is room for all of it. It might take some years. But eventually, there is room for all of it.
My big art/craft show is next weekend. I realized that with a gasp this morning as I passed by the calender. Oh My. Juggling this world, too. And lots left to sew. These GORGEOUS frames came in yesterday. I have been looking for this type of frame from a wholesaler...and it took me over a year to find. I love love love these. Authentic "barnwood" - these frames are upcycled wood from torn down old barns, houses and buildings. I can't wait to have them in my booth this weekend. My Etsy store badly needs an update. I hope to get to it after this show.
Also in the news: the outside world has been very hot. A heatwave pummeled our drought-ridden yard. Much of our lawn is...no longer. The last of our gardens singed. I have spent the last two mornings pulling plants out and cutting others back. Brad sawed down two citrus trees in the back of our property. I couldn't watch. But, they just were sickly, had been since we got here. One had little tough knobs of greenish oranges on it- the same ones- for over a year. Again, there was just no amount of fertilizer or mulching that would have helped. I know, because I tried. So down they went. Grass and plants need extra water and we can't give it. It really sucks.
Right now we are being asked to decrease water usage by 20%. Pretty soon we will likely have penalties inflicted upon us if we don't adhere to it. I look at my roses, thinking they may have to go too. Replaced with lavender and butterfly bush- plants that are more drought tolerant. We just don't know what we are in for here. And oh, I miss the rain. But, perhaps if I can create a more drought tolerant yard, I won't hate this all quite so much. Bit by bit... on this ever-so- dry quarter acre. I should Pinterest drought-tolerant landscaping! Unfortunately, I don't know if I have the luxury this week. Sniff.
Every morning, quite early before the heat sets in, I've been throwing out trashbins full of garden clippings and other crap from around the yard. Given lots away on Craigslist - wire fencing, scrappy wire side tables that I collected for some reason over the years. But I did save one "vintage" table and bench and made a little sitting area. Oh the things you can do with junk!
The girls have been asked a lot this week, and will be for the next week to come- to figure out how to keep themselves busy. I didn't think my older girl could do the paper marbling paper by herself today, but she did!! I am not a mother that tolerates "I'm bored" very well. If a child in this house is truly "bored" I offer chores. Sometimes I'll even pay them to do the chores. Because believe me, there are a LOT of chores around here that need doing. I paid fifty cents the other day for one of them to bring scraps to the chickens. I realized I overpaid soon after. It took my kid about 10 seconds and then she was "bored" again. Matching socks, cleaning out drawers, folding laundry (the last one always goes badly but...it keeps them busy)- these are things I will pay cold hard cash for. Cleaning their bedrooms and making their beds and keeping the art space tidy are things they must do "for free" when asked. Do your kids have chores?
Lastly, look at how big Amma is getting! She is super sweet. Just a doll. Her only "downfall" is that she is obssessed with the cat. She whines and cries when she sees her and chases her if she can. The last pic is the cat in the pool area. She knows she is safe behind the fence. Silly animals.
Anyway. I think that's about it for today. Thank you so much for being here. I will likely be gone until next week....keep connected with me here if you want during that time.