Today my mother in law came & watched the kids as I worked on the computer. Among other things, I wrote a letter to the LA Times book section promoting my dad, his career and his new website. Why the heck not. What is there to lose?
Then, I went to a raw food store and got a thingy that makes "pasta" noodles from raw veggies.
Later, I tried to teach Chloe how to sew (she didn't take to it much.) Instead, we played Memory game and Chloe counted all her cards and Olivia counted along... just one beat behind.
All the while I am thinking of what I wrote about last night.
Then, I go out to visit the chickens. (I love them.) And the one who has never let me get close to her (never) runs to me, jumps on the roost in front of me, turns around and crouches down so I can pet her. I stroke her beautiful black-green feathers over and over. All I am thinking is Why? Why tonight?
i can not pretend to understand them.
Some of these things are so sweet, they break my heart open.
And some of these things are so maddening...
i want to turn my back on the world.
How dare it.
I can hear my husband and my oldest daughter upstairs. He is teaching her things as he packs up his art for the show. They are talking about The Grand Canyon...
Her little four year old brain soaking it in. The clean, beautiful slate of her mind ,so hungry for knowledge. I love my people.
I love them.