When my first little girl was born, I looked at her face and nothing else for weeks. I literally could not take my eyes off her. Once in a while, I would avert my eyes for a moment and turn to look at Brad, his face looked SO BIG and out of proportion. It was the weirdest thing ever- and all I could do to make my eyes feel calm and normal again was to look back at my baby's little tiny rosy features. Her face was home to me. A friend put it well yesterday when she commented: "Being the parent of a little person can make the world very,very small." Yep. And that is how it SHOULD be- it's natures way of providing excellent care for offspring.
In my life, my babies are getting just a little bit bigger, now 6 and 4. They are beginning to explore their own personal worlds without needing my eyes on them every minute. It's only healthy for me to do the same. A few weeks ago I picked up where I left off some years ago to work on some writing apart from this blog. At first I thought maybe I couldn't do both, but then I realized that was a very silly thought. I love being here with all you. Very much. I won't be giving the blog up -though I may not post quite as frequently in the next months. Some other family shifts are also occurring (will share later) that will be taking some of my time. But I will be around. Who knows, maybe I will post more frequently! Who am I to predict the future?
Life is change. When we fight against the reality of change, we are living in a world that isn't real. I am exhilarated today, not knowing exactly what is next but... skies are blue, perfect for flying into the next evolution.
I want to take another opportunity here to thank all of you who read my blog. I know some of you don't ever comment though you have been longtime readers (you are known as "lurkers," by the way.) And for those of you that do comment, I so enjoy all your thoughts and words. They give me little sparkles of strength in my day. Hugs to you all...big hugs.
