You have given me so much assurance and such a powerful feeling this morning with your comments on yesterday's post. Thank you, friends. And I do call you friends even though I have not met many of you in the flesh. It is an amazing thing to wake up in the morning, check your email, and get cheered on from different corners of the country and world.
Many of you have been here with me for the approximately three years (really?) that I have been blogging and still, yesterday's post was hard for me to write, I was nervous to "come out" so to speak. But today I feel so much lighter and freer with your words of encouragement and I felt downright giddy this morning trying something I was worried to try before: making squares for a log cabin quilt. (It's actually very easy!)
Gosh. Such a voice in my head for so many years saying that I was just not "smart" enough to carry through with something, anything of real value to myself- as far as work. I couldn't just "get a job" like everyone else because I'm not that girl and I've made it this far without having to do it. But....it's a funny thing, that voice. Right? the one that says you can't. But what I see now is that passion overcomes fear. A longing to learn isn't enough, there has to be a powerful propelling. A hunger. A willingness to make mistakes. A willingness even, for someone to NOT like what I do.
I've watched my husband for 10 years slog through so many feelings and emotions connected to his art and where he has come in those years is amazing (he has come here.) I've watched several female friends build businesses from the ground up in the last few years and that has given me a wonderful mirror, as well.
It's hard to do the easy thing sometimes, which is just doing what we feel led to do. Unclogging all the crap that we need to unclog in order to see what it is exactly that our hearts are driven to do. Even as I write this, I can hear that old familiar voice saying...Nah. You can't pull it off.
But your voices this morning, were stronger.