I'm doing my best to keep the garden a part of our lives. It's a must. Where there is an hour that I can squeeze in (and even when there isn't) I stop in at the local nursery and plant a few more things that are in season. Imagine my surprise to see tomatoes available last weekend. (An early variety.) I have many more big garden dreams, huge green bean trellises and potatoes (that I have and need to be planted).... bit by bit. I think the key is to simply keep up in the garden. It really only takes a little bit of time to keep it at it's minimal best. And if I want it more amazing, then I know more time is needed.
And on the work front. Alright. What I am seeing is this: it's all about time spent. Because, you see, if I price something at a certain price then that means I need to have made it in a certain amount of time. There is a certain amount of money I need to make in an hour or... I'd be better off working at Starbucks, you know? So...putting my designs on clothing was not really working out in a viable way for me. It was taking me waaay too long. And then Brad had an idea, which I wont really go into, but I will say that I think it will speed up my process a LOT and that now I will be able to keep the "clothing line" going.
And so that is what is is like around here. The keeping going. The keeping on. Money spent and "wasted" on mistakes. Some curse words and in the worst cases, tears. And then waking up the next morning and getting back on the horse. And these words on my mind to the univere "Let's not mess with me today, shall we?" Eventually the trail gets less rocky, I hear. But let's be honest with ourselves: probably not today. We'll see. (And yes, that is a tepee sewn sketch that a store asked for.)
On the good side, there is a $12 sale going on in my shop on onesies and shirts for babies and kids. These are all organic cotton items (excpet for for one or two shirts- which are priced $10). These are sweet items and only on sale because I am doing things a tiny bit differently now & need to clear these out. You, my blog readers, really benefit from my learning curve. Grab them before they go!
Ok...so....All of this and then there has been the healing of one of my girls. Again, details are not neccessary. But I will share that we have been through the ringer the last month with her health.
Ultimately, I just wasn't feeling "whole" and certainly not happy, and actually quite worried with the care we were getting. So, we went back to our wonderful pediatrician (who is very popular and booked out for weeks and once you do get that "golden ticket" appointment, you have to wait a very long time until she comes in the room. But I stood my ground until they squeezed me in within 24 hours.)
She totally switched the protocol for our girl and made me understand what was really going on. She took her off (almost all) western drugs and put her on a fantastic mix of natural immune support and vitamins. She supported my diet changes (no gluten, no diary) and said she was going to suggest that anyway. And- she supported my choice in receiving additional care from our Chinese Medicine Doctor. So every morning now, our girl has a concoction of herbs and vitamins and probiotics mixed with a little bit of juice or water in a shot glass. She gulps it down with no fuss and skips off to school, feeling clear and good. And this mama is feeling SO much better about that! It's like I can breathe again. (If you're a mama, you get it. When a child is not totally well it's like walking around with a paper bag on your head. )
I am reminded again how important it is to feel that sense of wholeness and rightness where doctors and their advice is concerned. To just go along with a doctors advice, when just it doesn't feel right in your gut, means it's time for more searching.
When our pediatrician walked in the room to see us this last time, the first thing she did was look right into my daughters eyes and say (in her thick East Indian accent) Oh my, look at those eyes, I just need to sit here for a moment and drink in those beautiful eyes. I, of course, started crying right then because I knew we were in the right place.
So yes, it's been such a full few weeks. I am still needing to heal from my little cold. But I'm on my way. And here, with the house quiet, the kids happy and energetic and 2 blocks away at their great little school, I think for the first time in quiet a while I can slow down my thoughts and start fresh, in a sense. That's the plan, anyway.